Stressful week

it had been a stresful week for me and for my teammates and friends too. and i think that it is all the same for me and for you too, especially the life as students in university. and, it is normal too when we doing something and submit the assignments at the eleventh hour, right?
nevertheless, it just make us stress and could we being blame for that stressful things?
I think that it was our own fault that we do all the assignments and everything last minutes. then, we will end up being tired and have a sleepless night till it is time for examination that is coming nearer. 

Well, I think that we, as a sutdents especially should manage our time. Do a timetable and try to discipline ourselves, to be organize and will not do something at the eleventh hour. It will make our life as students miserable and unorganized, and we end up doing something careless and the assignments will be not that perfect. Some people choose to be organize, do timetable and being disciplined. But, as we all know human are unique and they have their own characteristic and wouldn't think the same way as us.

so, there will be some people that tend to let go and let the others to complete everything. I dunno what they are doing and i try to understand them, reasoning and cause of this behaviors happen. well, we are not perfect, isn't it?

In everything that we do, be responsible and try to cooperate with each other. that should be the meaning of teamwork, right? some may lacking, some may know more, so teach each other and be responsible as we are in the same team. 

i have this one friend. she is very stress because all her team members didn't want to cooperate. her team members are her own friends too, and they really know each other. But, she end up doing everything. The others just want to be help but, theere's no one to help her. i really hope that her friends can understand her and give cooperation in doing everything. they saw her being stressed, they saw her being sad, make that depressed and miserable face. But, they were just asking "what's wrong with you?"
They ask but never want to find the reason behind her sadness and stressful souls. they seems to not care about their team assignment and she is left alone to do everything. all they want is to hang out with other friends and be happy, not worrying and responsible to do the assignments. 

I've heard her. i've seen her. I wish I can help. But, I have my own things to do too as we are not in the same courses. I also have that stressful week and tired but I relieved that I can still gather up all the strength in me and did it. I know it may not perfect and it was just my and my friends effort.

to those..., be responsible and know others' feeling too. Do not be full of yourself only, do not be lazy, remember others too besides yourself. don't be selfish. we are all grown up now, do something that makes us mature and not act like a child anymore. takes the responsibility and cooperate with each other. do not badmouthed others at their back but pretending to be nice in front of them. 

my friends, be cheerful and do not stress yourself. Be cherish, take a deep breath, rest for a while and leave that aside for a moments.
take a moment of yourself till you have the strength to do it all again.

If there's a will, there will be a way. and, every problems that we have, there will be solution too. it is just the matter of time. 

be faithful,
and, be yourself....

give up or keep it up?

give up or keep it up?

should i give up or not? should i keep it up?

well....this is pretty much the life as a students and i know that every one of us have that struggles, being a teenager, student and youth. even the adults can not handle their own stress what more for someone life as students, teenagers and youth. 

it is easier to give up and let go but do your heart will feel at ease after doing so? don't you feel guilty for the responsibility that you had let go and leaves that responsibility to theres? should the others make it up for you then?

it is hard to live in this life and it is never been easier. you have to try hard, struggles and put on your best efforts that you've never did before to make it happen. sometimes, you see that the person is very calm and he or she is always happy and outgoing. no, it is not...

inside that person, he or she has their own story, their own secrets but they keep it. their inside may be messy, they have to struggles a lot, they also want to give up. 

i am always like that. that calm person but sometimes can be scary to others. i know that feeling and i feel like i want to give up too. but, i just can't. because it would be too much for me and it would make me feel unease. i have to make it, keep it up to myself, be comitted and never give up. 

i have my own way to handle all my stress. sometimes, i just can't handle it and i need  more time. sometimes, there are no enough time and i have to release myself from that stranggling feelings inside of me. i think i take care of others the most and forget about myself. i forget about me and never thought of my own feelings. i need some time for myself, i need some space for myself too.

and, i am glad that i have that someone with me. always. He will be by my side no matter what happen, anywhere, anytime and everytime that i need Him. you all knew Him. He is my saviour, my protector, my God, and my everything. i am so lucky and grateful to know Him in my life. if not, i would have give up now and end my own life. but, it didn't happened that way.

i am glad too for the companions that He gave me. i am surrounded by lovely people and they are one of the kind. they are my ruly companies, my truly and dearest friends and family. 

before you want to give up, remember the most important to you. remember all the love that they gave to you and how precious you are to them. 

you are beautiful, you are handsome, you are important, you are the jewels, you are the champion, you are the winner and you are the most precious thing in the world and to others too.

you are the most lovely and charming and dazzling.

be yourself...never give up because that something is never get over you. 

 God is bigger than the problems. 

Lover or being loved is better?

Can i be that lover or can i be loved?

That would be my questions when a saw a sweet couple in front of me. Seeing them being sweet in front of me and i am wondering is every couple like that or it was just my feeling? That chessy feeling of mine and sometimes they can be that sweet to each other and ignored the people around them. Sometimes, there would be a shocking news saying that they had broke up. What is that? Should it be like this?

Do you ever fall in love? Do you ever being in love before? What is the feeling that you have when you fall in love and in love with someone? Is he or she the crush that you had before the both of you started to be in love? Or maybe you are still single?

Ti is alright. Because i am too and i do not really know what is love. And i really wonder what is love anyways? Sometimes, i am wondering why am i never getting one to be my lover? Am i not beautiful or am i really that ugly that no one want to be with me? Or it is my personality that people dislikes? Some people and including my friends said that i played hard to get. Hmmm...am I? Then, is that the problems? I guess so. And i wonders too, am i really that played hard to get?

When i doing some quizzes to know my personality and how people think of me, most of the answers said that i am played hard to get. But, actually that is one of my charms and the quizzes also stated that i have a lot of sense of humors. Well, i hope that is true and i end up being funny and people will laugh at me when i do not know what i had done that they would laugh. But, i am happy to know that i can make someone smile and i really hope that someone would smile too, when i am doing the same things.

Being a teenager, when i was in my 10’s, i can admit that i never build any special relationships. Just me, myself and friends. Sometimes, i get jealous when i saw my friends with their lover and i will always wondering if i will ever get one? Until now, i still can’t find it. Nevertheless, i enjoyed my every moments. I think that i am a philophobia but a philophobia is someone that is afraid to love someone again after they had been broken-hearted. Could i be that phobia due to afraid of love and being love? Well, i do not know what is is. Because i still could not figure it out. Should i be in love or being loved? Am i becoming a phobia after seeing lovers in front of me?

I wishes i am not that phobia. I think i am just holding myself from falling in love. I even let go of my first love that will never know me. And now he is with someone better than me. I wish that they can be together forever. 

I think i am just being filial to myself and to my parent too. I would not blame them. Never. I will obey them and sometimes i think i should just disobeyed them. But it is never a good thing for me. I’ve did it once and i cannot repeat it again when disobeyed my parent. I try to follow my heart that want to go with my love one and the end result was no so good. Really. And i don’t want to do that again. Maybe, if i am passion and i need to do the right thing for myself, i will. Now, i am trying to obey them and at the same time, do what my heart wants the most and to think on everything i did logically. I can still be rationale and logical at the same time being the crazy and funny me. 

That is me. Ever wonder to be in love or being loved? Never worry and just live the way you are. Be yourself and love yourself first before you love others. 

LOVE OR BEING LOVED?

THINK IT.…